Emotional rollercoaster

I apologize for not blogging for about a month now, I feel like I've been super busy!!! I will try and do better! ;) I am now 7 weeks away from competition, and can't believe how fast it's gone! I've had a roller coaster of emotion these past few weeks. About three weeks ago I started working with on-line coach for my diet and workouts. I wanted some structure of someone telling me exactly what to eat and what to do. So far, I've been very pleased with my coach's methods. One thing I have learned is that losing bodyfat, ect. is about DIET not EXERCISE. It's about creating a calorie deficit. You need to have a sound diet to lose weight/fat. You can't eat like crap and make it up with exercise if your wanting to lose fat. I totally am a believer in that now.  When Erik (my coach) first sent me the diet, my body definitely had to adjust! Since my bodyweight is very low, it's hard to find that calorie deficit, so I am definitely on a restriction much lower than I was used to, which will only get lower closer to show! However, I am actually working out less than I was and getting great results! Currently 4 weight workouts a week, 2 core/ab strengthening workouts, and 2 cardio workouts. The first week of my new plan I truly felt like giving up...but i've stuck through it and realized I've come a long way and want to finish what I started! In these past 3 weeks I have gained mental strength that I  never knew was possible. Yes it is hard to resist the temptations of every day life with food, especially when everyone around you does not eat the way you do. I have learned that I am in control of my mind and that piece of pizza is no longer worth it to me with all the hard work I've put it. This process is only going to make me a stronger person in the end, and that is what I think about every time I'm tempted. I'm not going to lie, this is that hardest thing I've ever done in my life, much harder than I thought. Now I am very focused on my end result and nothing is going to stop me at this point! Whether I get first or last in the show, when i make it to that day I get on stage, I know that I will have achieved something that little or no people could ever do, and I will be proud regardless. Currently my diet is looking like this:
Meal 1:Oatmeal/eggwhites/blueberries
Meal2: Post workout-Protein shake/160 cal carb
Meal 3: chicken/sweet potato
Meal 4: Shrimp/rice
Meal 5: Top sirloin/veggie
Meal 6: 1/2 cup cottage cheese
Gallon of water per day
Non-workout days are a little different...I can finally start subbing foods this week! Still  need to stick within calorie ranges but nice to get a little variety. Like I said, the tough thing is that the calories will get lower closer to show, and right now I'm not taking in an extreme amount, about 1200/day. So here we go, 7 weeks left! No turning back now!
I truly believe that everyone has the ability to do whatever they want in life. This process has truly taught me that. The things you want in life are not always easy, there are road blocks and challenges. It's about what you yourself is willing to sacrifice and do to reach your goal. Hard work,determination, consistency,compliance...That is how I'm going to reach my goals...How bout you??? Til next time...